No, it's crazy because I was enjoying what we were doing. I've always had to be the one responsible for everyone and everything in my life, and if I stepped out of line with anyone or anything people could get hurt. My romantic life was my getaway, and my release. I--
[He turns his head, because he feels his heart in his throat. How is it that he feels so much and Carter doesn't even know it. They've been together for a while, but apparently Scott hides some things well. ]
I was never used to not having feelings be on the same level, the same with sexual desires. It always used to sync, and I vowed that after I misread you so bad that first time, that I'd go by your pace. We can make decisions together, but I've always been wherever you want me to be. I sorta thought you understood that.
[Reaching out he smiles softly, his heart on his sleeve and in his eyes. He twists a small piece of Carter's hair and caresses his cheek.]
I figured you'd tell me when you felt ready to fool around more, move forward in any part of our relationship. I know you care deeply, and that you enjoy making me feel good, and that's really all I will ever need to know. I can't make these sort of decisions for you, babe. I can know how I feel, and have always known that, but I will never push you or make you uncomfortable with it.
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Date: 2024-04-20 08:04 pm (UTC)[He turns his head, because he feels his heart in his throat. How is it that he feels so much and Carter doesn't even know it. They've been together for a while, but apparently Scott hides some things well. ]
I was never used to not having feelings be on the same level, the same with sexual desires. It always used to sync, and I vowed that after I misread you so bad that first time, that I'd go by your pace. We can make decisions together, but I've always been wherever you want me to be. I sorta thought you understood that.
[Reaching out he smiles softly, his heart on his sleeve and in his eyes. He twists a small piece of Carter's hair and caresses his cheek.]
I figured you'd tell me when you felt ready to fool around more, move forward in any part of our relationship. I know you care deeply, and that you enjoy making me feel good, and that's really all I will ever need to know. I can't make these sort of decisions for you, babe. I can know how I feel, and have always known that, but I will never push you or make you uncomfortable with it.